Our newest verse by verse journey, I Am Not Alone, will begin in August.
Jana Kennedy-Spicer asks this question in her Sweet to the Soul inspired bible study, “Have you ever felt alone?”
Even before I lost a son, I would have answered this question with a resounding yes, but now that I walk through grief the feeling of “alone” haunts me almost every day. Even when my family and friends surround me with love and compassion, I suffer from feelings of loneliness. I combat those feelings by reminding myself of the truth that God is always with me.
“The interesting thing about feeling alone is that it doesn’t require actually being alone.” Jana Kennedy-Spicer
Twelve weeks ago I sat on my couch with my prayer journal out. My broken-heart was aching and I felt so alone. On this particular day, my lament was greater than my praise as I read Psalm 34: 6-8.
“In my desperation I prayed, and the Lord listened; he saved me from all my troubles. For the angel of the Lord is a guard; he surrounds and defends all who fear him. Taste and see that the Lord is good. Oh the joys of those who take refuge in him!”
My questions were honest and my heart was trusting even in my doubts.
Where were the angels?
Where were your wings?
Where were you?
Deep down I knew the truth, for I trust he never leaves us. But I needed my God, El Rio, the one who sees to speak to my heart.
I read from Matthew how he cares for me more than the sparrow.
I played worship music and asked him to turn my mourning into dancing, to wrap his arms of comfort around my heart and all hearts mourning loss.
I got up to leave my quiet place but not before looking to the right to pick up a paper. And there it was. A soft white feather. A soft voice of love from a God who sees.
The Lord was listening just as His word promises. I was not alone.
I left a page of my journal empty that day. I messaged seven friends for prayer. Within a few hours, I received an unexpected visit. My mom stopped by work with a gift. She said she was saving it but something told her that I needed it now. I opened a tiny box and lifted out a silver necklace with a feather charm.
El Rio sees me.
He sees you.
He wants to be your refuge.
You are not alone.
I’ve known the emptiness of loneliness before I knew the grief of losing a child. I have felt it in crowded rooms. You may be feeling alone today, even as you are surrounded by others. God has the unique ability to meet us right where we are, speak to our heart through his word, and yes, I believe, in ways as I have mentioned. Ways that are unmistakably His hand moving. Ways that reassure us of the truth that His word proclaims, “… And behold, I am with you always…” Matthew 28:20.
During our August journey, we will be praying you grow more aware of His presence as you walk through the scriptures. We will post a daily scripture (on Facebook and Instagram) as a beginning place for your quiet time and we encourage you to read the verses in context as you ask God to reveal Himself to you.
Download your free 31 scripture list here >>>>> I Am Not Alone Scripture List
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If you would like to have a wonderful place to journal and document your prayers we recommend purchasing this beautiful Soul Inspired Bible Study by Sweet to the Soul Ministries >>>Purchase here
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We are so grateful for God’s word and enjoy walking with you, verse by verse.