Day 9: Choose Truth Over Lies

Lie: I am a terrible person.

Truth: I am lovely, and there is no flaw in me.

Scripture: Song of Solomon 4:7 NIV

“You are altogether beautiful, my darling; there is no flaw in you.”

There I sat on the floor of the laundry room, washer spinning, dryer drying, my children’s bookbag contents strewn on the floor, and tears streaming down my face. I’ll never forget this day. The school year was over, and I was a complete mess. With each piece of paper I removed from their bookbags I wondered, how did I miss that? Where was I? How could I be such a terrible person?

There was a wrestling match going on in my mind and my heart needed to win this one.

Truth: I struggled hard with understanding how to put God first and find true joy.
Truth: This struggle took me down a road of rough terrane that was ugly.
Truth: I was self-absorbed and defiant, I spend precious time pursuing the pleasures of the world and missed some very important things.
Truth: I am a sinner, saved by grace, with a Father who ran and embraced His daughter upon her return and celebrated her homecoming.
Truth: I hurt others and myself.

That moment on the floor was tender and hard. But at the end of it, I rejoiced. I understood the compassion of my Lord. I understood His healing power over my sin. I understood joy is not and never will be the same as the “happy” we see the world seeking.

When I recount my past sins, it is very hard for me not to hear the lie, “Jodie, you are a terrible person”. When I hear others talking I often cringe and wonder what they would think if realized that was me. I hear the lie loud and clear from the Enemy, “you are a terrible person, they will walk away”. These are moments I have difficulty believing, “You are altogether beautiful, my darling, there is no flaw in you” (Song of Solomon 4:7).

I stand in front of women and encourage them to believe this truth is for them, but my heart needs reminding also.

Satan doesn’t want you and I to receive this message of truth. If he can keep us in doubt, He wins.

There were several years between my laundry room tears and the time I accepted God’s call to enter women’s ministries. I didn’t believe I was a terrible person anymore, but I believed that having traveled that ugly road disqualified me from serving in leadership. When I looked at the life of Paul I knew I wasn’t disqualified at all, but I needed the truth to unlock the chains of doubt. Paul writes, “Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners—of whom I am the worst. But for that very reason I was shown mercy so that in me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might display his immense patience as an example for those who would believe in him and receive eternal life.” 1 Timothy 1:15-16

Please hear my heart. You are beautiful. Unflawed. Not a terrible person. You are the daughter of a King.
God looks down and He sees His daughters, covered by the blood of Jesus. He sees “all beautiful”.

He sees you and He declares, “You are altogether beautiful, my darling, there is no flaw in you.”

~ Blessings, Jodie

Prayer/Further Study

Lord, You are so gracious and good. You shower us with love and compassion. You look down and you see us washed by the blood of your son, forgiven and without flaw. We are the work of your hand. Help our hearts believe and accept the truth. Forgive us when we fall short, help us see the err of our ways, return and repent, trusting that your grace awaits. In Jesus name, Amen.

Read 1 Timothy 1:12-17, In verse 12 what does Paul that the Lord for? In verses 13-14 what does Paul admit and what does he declare he was shown?

Paul shares why He was shown great patience in verse 16: “But for that very reason I was shown mercy so that in me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might display his immense patience as an example for those who would believe in him and receive eternal life.” Does this encourage your heart today?