Grace, grace. God’s grace. Grace that is greater than all our sin.
I discovered the depth of God’s grace on a dark closet floor.
Distraught and finding my way to the foot of that cross. The one He died on for “all who sinned and fall short of the glory of God” (Romans 3:23). Yes, I crawled in my closet, knowing that the only thing that could restore my brokenness was grace. Grace was all I had and all I needed.
“But where sin increased, grace increased all the more”
Sin. My sin took me to that closet and His grace met me there and brought me out different than when I entered! Praise Him!
This week while preparing for an online book study that I am participating in using, Broken Into Beautiful by Gwen Smith, Romans 5:20 poked it’s head out as the verse of the week, or VOW as Gwen says. The VOW is used as our memory verse and we are to take time to dig into the verse and “map” it out, making it personal to us. I couldn’t help but go to the verses surrounding 5:20b and I was left remembering exactly how I felt when I emerged from my closet. Peaceful; consumed by the spirit; forgiven; ever-changed by His grace!
“Therefore I say to you, her sins, which are many, are forgiven, for she loved much.”
Let me give you a picture of where I was before I crawled in this closet. I was broken into pieces because of my sin, exhausted from running in the wrong direction. I sat at the end of a lake pier with a dear friend and I asked the question, “Do you hate me”?
That. That is where I was. I felt hated. Despised.
My sweet friend looked me in the eye and said, “No. Hate the sin, not the sinner”. Needless to say I cried. She embraced me. I needed that grace from my friend in that very moment. I want to be that friend to others in their brokenness. It didn’t end my journey with the struggle, there was heart work that needed to be done with God. Repentance. But her words and touch were a reminder of God’s love toward me and they helped me press forward. They encouraged me to do my heart work with God!
The day I went into the closet beautiful heart work was being done. Consumed by peace, He met me there on the floor and overwhelmed my heart. His grace was abounding and I trusted that His grace was sufficient. Where my sin increased, His grace increased.
“Therefore, having been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom also we have obtained our introduction by faith into this grace in which we stand”
Years later I had a friend ask me, “Jodie, when did you have your closet moment”? She caught me so off guard that I had to laugh. When I realized what she was referring to I answered and I asked her why she asked. She smiled and replied, because I can tell you are different.
Grace changes us! Oh yes girls!
God can take our brokenness and restore us to beautiful!
“The restoration from broken into beautiful is neither easy or instantaneous. It demands a yielded heart and can be quite painful, but it comes with great reward.”.
~Gwen Smith, Broken Into Beautiful
Are you struggling? Have you found yourself where I was that day feeling despised and miles away from peace? Do some heart work with God. His arms are open wide and His grace is abounding!
Writing with a yielded heart~ Jodie
(It takes some time and thought but I recommend reading Romans 5: 12-21 and Like 7:36-50 for further study. And if you are feeling broken and in need of Grace that abounds beyond measure I recommend Gwen’s book, Broken into Beautiful)